thanks yuen for playing camera obscura and jason mraz. interestingly camera obscura is also from glasgow. old schoolish, melancholic and melodramatic, it could be one of the few bands with female vocalists that i would fall in love with. another great band produced by the city besides belle and sebastian, travis, franz ferdinand, strawberry switchblade etc.
been to dragon's back for a 3-hour hike this morning with yuen and some new friends (finally i wasn't hiking alone). it's an easy route but the scenery was great, so i guess i will go alone again when the weather is fine.
C suddenly called me as if nothing ever happened (扮冇野... how should i express this in english?). i hinted to him that we shouldn't see each other again coz we just couldn't tune to the same channel, but as usual he didn't seem to understand my language (which was an example to show that we really couldn't communicate...). finally i gave up and told him just call if he ever dropped by lantau island.
i don't know what's the point of maintaining this relationship which i dunno how to name. sometimes i really think it's a waste of time, but sometimes i stupidly try to seek comfort from it despite the fact that we are not interested in each other's life, and i can never agree to his lifestyle.
i can only attract men aged 40 or above who treat me like a daughter (which is actually good coz they have many stories to share), or young men about my age who treat me like a brother...
as i'm worrying about not having one single offer from any school / not being able to find someone to love for the rest of my life / getting old / not being able to finish the loads of movies and books that i'm supposed to watch or read, some people around me have got married or are about to get married already. i used to think marrying early was equivalent to suicide, but i begin to wonder these people are actually the wiser ones... at least they are living their lives happily according to their wish, and are actually achieving something.
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one of the favourite tracks from the My Maudlin Career album. feel like falling in love again.
Honey in the Sun A half full moon in Mexico City I think of you When I saw the Southern Cross I wished you had too I wish my heart was as cold as the morning dew But its as warm as saxophones and honey in the sun for you
Ive been spending half the year In a plane going up and down Youve been seeing other people from a nearby town Been obsessing and getting depressed about us Excess baggage and other stupid band stuff
I wish my heart was cold But its warmer than before I wish my heart was as cold as the morning dew But its as warm as saxophones in And honey in the sun for you
When you said the veins in my left hand Were shaped like a tree Was that the very last time you really looked at me? Im in training to become as cold as ice Im determined to protect my feelings, to disguise
When I said I didnt love you I told you a lie There no one above you although I try Would you laugh at the time I spent calling your name Over and over and over and over again?
I wish my heart was cold But its warmer than before I wish my heart was as cold as the morning dew But its as warm as saxophones in And honey in the sun for you
The trouble is I got me close to hating me When I wake up in the morning its your face I see Where you once made me feel less afraid Youve got me pouring myself all over this page
I wish my heart was cold But its warmer than before I wish my heart was as cold as the morning dew But its as warm as saxophones in And honey in the sun for you But its as warm as saxophones in And honey in the sun for you