Tuesday, Aug. 18, 2009 11:16 p.m.
呢期多病痛，感冒好返一個星期，今晚又頭痛+嘔，希望冇事。可能身體知道個心想放假，所以作反...... 想DEVOTE一段長時間自修，日後或者再冇咁既機會。不過呢段時間點樣可以俾錢屋企又係一個問題，畢竟FREELANCE唔會KEEP住有，同埋D人可以拖你一兩個月先找數。 其實LO WAN KI同我咪一樣貪心，你唔做FREELANCE但係做VOLUNTEER...... 其實我個人好婆媽好心軟。唔想應酬既人，我會因為唔想HURT人而應酬，唔想捧既場，我會為左畀面而捧。Mr D (from now on i'll call him Mr D) 提醒左我，其實我地可以選擇同D咩人交往，可以放棄唔值得KEEP既朋友。人生苦短，點解要逼自己做咁多無謂既應酬呢。 actually i'm tired of that. well i've had that feeling since a few years back actually. i don't want to put excess smiles (i smile a lot but that doesn't mean i am fake) and try to be nice to people i'm tired of... but the first thing is, i have to learn to say no. that requires some cold blood. 識到K同學係一種緣份。大學三年，表面上好忙好多野搞，其實可能係人生中最寂寞既三年。從小學以黎都好多時候冇朋友，成日要扮冇事，直到大學都係咁。YR 1同YR 2對我黎講真係超級痛苦，我最開心既竟然係YR 3，因為我終於走少左堂，終於離開要逼自己SOCIAL既生活，終於靠自己交到DESIGN功課，同埋終於有稍為穩定既朋友關係。 呢位同學以前o係我屋企附近讀中學，呢間亦係我哥既母校，佢LUNCH TIME去既茶餐廳我都會去。如果我唔係轉左去九龍讀書，我9成都會入o個間中學，可能會同佢做同學。o係認識佢之前，原來我地已經o係同一個空間生活，share對呢一區既共同記憶，感覺好奇妙。 i always find it embarrassing and awkward to read my 口語 afterwards, but i couldn't express it in english or 書面語. heard that a secondary schoolmate is getting married. archian或者做創作的人，讀書、結婚、買樓都要遲人幾年。it's the consequence of devoting one's life into pursuing a dream. when you design, you simply can't spare any resources to worry over all the practical stuff anymore. so if i can't get married or earn a penny by 30, 認命la. |