Saturday, Jul. 04, 2009 1:30 a.m.

the mini lecture on brutalism and architectural trends in relation to corporate and national/government power was interesting. we were never taught that way in school. dark realities would never be told to students in school. maybe they are discuss everywhere but not in hong kong, i don't know.

sometimes i'm grateful for such mini lectures and discussions, but sometimes i am really fed up with 講多過做. you know meetings are actually more body energy consuming than really working, and they are one of the reasons for OT. so it's time for a little chat with the HR. i know i will confront with boss (again...) again. it's a super unpleasant experience and a waste of time, but without going through that process i'll never be able to quit. i feel that i have been tormenting myself, always wanting to do more than what time and body conditions allow. work, sketching, freelance, walking, memorizing GRE vocab, reading... i can never give up any of these (work is the only thing that i might want to give up).

back to the lecture. the question is: are students supposed to be told of the distorted values and ugliness of society? when i was in f.7 陶傑 or ng ji bin goh gave a talk to us. the guy said "有錢就打得贏官司". that's not his exact wording, but the meaning is similar la. it sparkled up a discussion among us after the talk. i rmb kmlee was against it... ooz it's a talk targeted at young people who are about to begin their career. what does this statement imply?

and today when i listened to boss talking about brutalism and second realities, i was thinking whether it's necessary to stress the ugliness of the world over and over again. what's the point of doing this? if the world is ugly and unfair no matter how hard we try, does that mean we can give up living? what's the use of spreading this negativity to us who are relatively young?

it's getting late... i don't have time and energy to think. i'm just asking...