Tuesday, Oct. 21, 2008 10:22 p.m.
felt like disintegrating today. felt so suffocated on 40. that journey from kwun tong to kwai fong was killing me. everything was killing me. it's such a strong exhaustion that i wanted to cry. couldn't help pitying myself... what a shame. sim card was deactivated because i didn't pay the bills. didn't have to walk too far to find 3 actually... it's just that i was not feeling ok, and it turned out like forever. thanks ki for your positive energy (maybe you don't think you have?). i'm breaking down. but when deadlines (imposed on you by other people) are approaching, what can you do about it? the world is not gonna stop for you. thanks to mr murakami as well. i hate the 教你做人books my boss reads. hate all those books. hate his imposing value standard on others. i love murakami for his easiness. thank you. thanks for sustaining my life. |