Sunday, Apr. 06, 2003 2:01 p.m.
yesterday we went to ���� in Tai O. i wasn't used to �s�� so i was a bit clumsy. it's the first i went to �_�s and took a look at the ���_�ɸO(ng ji hai north ding south din west leh?). CHIU lang ar d scenery! hor yi tai dou nearly entire Tai O. next time i have to bring my �[�� to draw a picture of this beautiful village~ yesterday when i was lying in bed, i thought about l.f. what happend between he and me is certainly a ���I in my life. everytime i think of him i feel really painful and shameful of myself. it's really a shame. i suddenly realized that nearly 3 yrs have passed since i met him in f3. sometimes i want to phone to juz listen to his voice, but i dare not and i know i shouldn't.i don't want to ruin myself once again. lau farn d dignity bei ji gei ho mo? 3 years and i'm still a mess. i still confuse myself with all sorts of wild imagination. i always bring others pain and bring myself pain in return. before ����, i wasn't in the mood for lessons at all. i didn't want to listen to the teachers. i wanted to run away from the classroom. as i couldn't run away, i kept myself busy thinking abt that man. very selfish and jin gark thoughts again. one night i called him and when we were about to hang up the phone, i told him sth... ngor ho seung tung kui gong, darn hai yau ng ji ying ng ying goi gong.. ngor hai ho obvious gum bei false hope kui... seung dim ar? ngor yuen chuen jung hai tung 3 yrs ji chin 1 yeung, jung hai ng ji sei, jung hai yiu walk on a wire. can't i be a little bit more thoughtful? sing yut wai jor 1 si geh excitement luen lei... lin l.f. dou wui pei c nei lor, stop all these can't u!? |