Monday, Jul. 06, 2009 11:11 p.m.
約了WIKI看我們是快樂的好兒童,雖然還未上網查看節目資料,但既然是前進進加上WIKI邀請,當然要支持一下。幾年前跟ROCHA看的前進進DRAMA喚作甚麼?都忘了...... 會不會當時WIKI也在場內,只是我們還未認識? 個人其實有點怕看舞台表演(CONCERT除外),因為精神要高度集中,很耗體力。我會寧願做幕後,可惜大學以來都不再有參與DRAMA的機會。 新疆暴亂,包主萬事小心了。 某天同事得戚地說,自己又有老婆又有女,仲想點啫。見他樣衰衰,差點想兜巴車埋去,但除了看他不順眼,他的話還是為我帶來震撼的。我就從來不會想,有老公有仔女就是完美的人生。但怎麼樣的生活才會教人滿足?他在我或者其他人眼中雖然冇用得無可救藥,但若果組織家庭就是他一生最大的喜悅,而這種喜悅足以令他別無所求,那他比我們這些唔知自己想點,淨係知自己唔想點的所謂聰明人幸福得多,在領悟人生這個環節更勝一籌。 在外人看來讀名校做好工的我們,為何總是覺得寂寞,自傷自憐?為何總是要戴上假面,甚至太習慣裝假而忘記自己? 以自己長久未戒掉的扮可愛惡習為例,其實可以說是一種自我防禦的手段。性格比較冷漠自私的本人,為了生存、掩飾寂寞與滿足別人的期望,練成了看似得意的一面。扮可愛也有累人的時候,但被別人定型為愛笑、得意的類型後,就會開始混淆了真與假。不過總之滿足到別人的EXPECTATION(即是可愛的人行為理應可愛,型人就只可以型,一切都是ROLEPLAY而已),就可以不必花太多心力應付許多無關痛癢但又必須應酬的人。 這種做法對排解寂寞一點用處也沒有。的確會吸引到注意力,並能迅速讓新認識的人留下印象,但有時也著實令人很累,變成中女後相信也會失效。 - 1 or 2 more weeks to go... couldn't help sending an email last night. would i scare you le. r u just as 淆底 as i am? wanna play u a song on guitar, but i don't know how -_-" - 想起pink floyd. wish i could play it. So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, Blue skys from pain. Can you tell a green field From a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? And did they get you to trade Your heros for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change? And did you exchange A walk on part in the war For a lead role in a cage? How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls Swimming in a fish bowl, Year after year, Running over the same old ground. What have we found? The same old fears. Wish you were here. |