Sunday, Jun. 08, 2008 9:30 a.m.
different tendencies under different circumstances / act or express myself differently in different media. this is something i never realized until now. when i type in english, i try to be cool and rational.
when i type in spoken chinese, i sound low b and happier.
when i type in written chinese, i tend to be melancholic.
when i'm on msn, i either pour out everything i want to say or play cool. tend to be more reserved coz it's such a guessing game.
when i write with a pen in spoken chinese, i pour out my passionate thoughts (and express them in a more cutie way) without putting them into proper structure.
when i write with a pen in written chinese, i'm just as sincere except i sound more melancholic and subtle.
if i have to write with a pen in english, it's because i need to clear out my thoughts before they flee. it probably is the most initial arguments coming up in my brain.
when i talk on phone, i tend to make myself sound happy and cute even when i'm not particularly happy.
when i have to talk face to face with someone, i don't follow the script in my heart.
when i type sms, i feel desperate and passionate but i try to make the msg sound subtle.
when i'm with a big crowd, i stay cool and quiet.
when i'm with one person, i act more happily then i really am and can't help talking too much. and when there's dead air, my mind is blank and void of emotions.
when i'm alone or at a distance, i torture myself with thoughts and overflowing emotions. |