Friday, Sept. 16, 2005 10:13 a.m.

10000 goh sun fu from wednesday night to thursday night. the more i panicked, the more stuck i became. although the crit turned out to be ok (yau good points yau bad points gum la), i was not satisfied at all with my work. in thursday morning i was extremely �c�� and thought i should study fine arts instead of archi. people in studio all tried to encourage and support each other, even edward came to me and said "charng jue ah helen jeh". at that moment really ho touched dik... but gwor sun fu jau really sun fu, after all dou hai yiu ji gei solve.

i guess many others also �c�� as i do. this year d courses... ho ng dim ar. gau chor ar, 1:30pm pin up, jung giu ngor dei 2pm hand in BT classwork! and i don't understand why viscom would become an IT course. what's the relationship between visual communications and ecotect? they won't teach autocad anymore. so they expect us to learn everything on our own. well... as a U student we should learn by ourselves geh but then i really think that ecotect is nothing to do with viscom. i want Marc back =( i don't want the formz promoter.

ugh. still heartaching. but i think u r extremely right. i respect everything u say, as i respect u the most. i'm sorry to make u disappointed. and i have to say thanks for your reminder.

and i like to see you laugh more than anyone laughs. when u laugh i know it's real. and it's very rare. i can't understand your sorrow coz i'm too superficial. but i sincerely respect u and like to see you happy.

dunno since when, ngor ng ji dong ng dong nei hai frd. that day i couldn't help thinking this question again. i want to befriend u, but it seems that i can't meet ur expectation. ngor ng ji gong meh ho, or ng ji dim gong.

actually recently dou yau lum farn hei what i said before. maybe becoz of the visit period, i thought more about myself ba. i always think, if i was to start all over again, would i make the same decision? probably no ba... gum hai mai jik hai ngor yi ga regret le? gum yau ng hai lor ngor gok duc. like in the poem "the road not taken" gum, people always think that the alternative maybe better. but as life can never go back, nobody can really experience the road not taken and compare it with the road already taken, and say that i like the road not taken more. it's better to go with the heart and not to regret.

help me stand up again ba, and tell me it'll be okay.