Monday, Mar. 15, 2004 3:49 p.m.
luckily i could sleep last night, but unfortunately i was waken up by a nightmare in which i was holding a small knife, trying to save the life of a fish. it's not the first time i dreamt of trying to save the fish. they were real nightmares that made me really really sick. in my dreams i always had to save the fish before it died without water. i felt suffocated and not able to speak in other fishless dreams. ------------------------------------ went to kwai tsing theatre to get the guidebook for hk internation film festival 2004. hopefully we can enjoy another bunch of good movies this year. you know i wouldn't go home immediately. so i went to metroplaza's �T�p. no great design books today. i flipped through a 2cm-thick �[���Ų page by page, and you can imagine how much time i had spent on flipping. when i went out the time was 10am and i arrived home at 12. hair jor ging loi as if i was having a real holiday. actually i felt very lost. i didn't even know what to eat. at first i thouth i would cook. so i opened the fridge to find if there were any vegetables. i saw a plastic bag and looked inside. a black thing.. a �X�l or what? but all of us in the family didn't like �X�l. i held it closer and suddenly i threw the thing down, totally horrified. the sickening but obscure smell and the image of the dead fish made me want to throw up. i felt really really sick. i didn't know until that moment that an animal corpse in a fridge could be so terrible, almost a sign of evil, mocking and taking revenge on we human beings for taking animal lives so neatly and so scientifically. the microwave heater was my resort. finally i ate 2 pieces of bread and ����s and orange juice. a strange combination. i'm going back to the effectiveness of fiscal policy lu. just had a long long rest. hm.. i'm wondering whether i have a special connection with fishes. nh.... -____- no comment----------------------------------------i don't why all this inspiration rushes out at this time when i have to do revision and face exams and have no time to draw anything. anyway here are the things i've got in mind:1. a few comic stripes on the theme of dreams/nightmares2. i think i'd better carry on with the unfinished music video (seahorse) on paper instead of struggling with Fireworks and Flash.3. a night-cityscape. express distance and depth with different sizes of lights. |