Thursday, Jan. 29, 2004 8:03 p.m.

couldn't sleep for the whole week. i sobbed in bed, not knowing who to turn to at 3am in the morning. dad jokingly said "sei lor you've gone mad. yiu hui kwai chung hospital (juen for mental illnesses)" mum kept saying "geng hai la, you always stay up late! go to bed earlier tonite" what's the use of going to bed early when i can't fall asleep after waiting for 6 hours? on wednesday morning i told them i wanted to see the doctor, and they finally looked at the matter seriously. but the doctor wasn't very helpful. she juz gave me 2 pills. last night i was actually very tired, dim ji after taking a pill, i still had to wait for a few hours before i could sleep.

ai.. thanks suede for accompanying thru the sleepless nights. thanks anita chu for the sleeping pills. thanks to my friends for giving me all sorts of advice.

imagine how terrible it is to stay awake forever. you will have to carry all the daily memories to bed. ho chi tai video gum, repeat yau repeat, jung yiu ng hai systemetically gum repeat wor, wui ga mai ji gei d imagination, gau dou �믫����. when i was lying in bed, i drowned in my thoughts and forgot who i was coz sometimes i involved in someone else's ���� in my imagination. i was so upset and horrified to find myself under such a delirious condition.

and during today's assembly, a few girls felt unwell. when a girl fainted, s.lau commanded, "teacher! hold her!" and then she said again, "one more teacher! maybe she's a little bit heavy." wa... gik sui lor s.lau. she carried on with her speech, but after a while another girl was fainting. jau hai gum, s.lau kept commanding, "teacher!" she commanded in such an impolite way as if all teachers were her servants, goh goh dou yiu tang kui command gum. and when one of the girls felt unwell, she reminded us to have hot breakfast before coming to school and said sternly, "i can tell that they literally look pale" wa, yuen loi looking pale is not a right thing. 1 goh headmistress hor yi gum gong yeh ga meh, kui jun hai yi wai breakfast can solve all the problems? d students dou ng seung fall sick ga, kui ho chi hai dou BLAME the students for being sick gum lor bak chi.