Thursday, Jun. 26, 2003 4:05 p.m.
yesterday went cycling. from shatin to tai po and then back to shatin. took some photos lor. yum saai d pocari sweat tung mai d water. damn hot yesterday. jung yiu cha ng doh whole journey dou hai mo yeh �B. especially cycling along tolo highway goh jun hai �� dou yau d tung tim lor, ho choi yau sunplay, yau poot d water lok my arms and face, sor yi d skin mo mud si. ng wui ho chi leadership training goh chi gum, �Y���`��-_- ho ging ar sunplay =) ngor d skin colour mo mud bin dou. after that i went to buy underwear. ai.. ho upset. never been so upset about my own body. hate hate hate. just want to hide myself away. i'm a kid who refuses to grow up. one has little control over his fate. he can't even control the development of his own body. i know i'm being silly but i'm just disgusted. can i just grow mentally? no... growing up mentally will also bring all sorts of ugly ideas of adults to my mind. i'll become one of them. assimilated... i still have something to say but i can't go any further here. i'm reading the english version of milan kundera's "the unbearable lightness of being". i think it's easier to understand the english translation. the chinese translation is a bit clumsy. tereza's struggle between soul and body... is it a common dilemma of human beings? we yearn for something higher and yet we are just the same as everybody else. |