Saturday, Apr. 26, 2003 11:48 p.m.

we went to cultural centre to watch "adaptation" after school on wednesday. the movie was really funny. however, i thought it was a little bit too dramatic near the end... why should the twin brother die? well.. maybe it's his death that made nicholas cage live on courageously.

hey joyzi, bei nei gin dou ngor ho "lum" kui tim. i always flirt~ ha~ ok la i'm full of wild desires~ but i believe i'm not YOUR kind (i'm not discriminating anyone ah ha~ juz ng seung bei yun doubt ngor d orientation ji ma~)

but gwor... if ngor encounter kui in f.4 ngor ying goi wui luen lum yeh lor. u know how doubtful i was at that time.

i had received a letter from interlochen finally. i was happy to know that i got some recognition from outsiders, but i knew i was to be disappointed in the next second coz dad wouldn't let me go.

then mr sze told me abt the scholarship thing... around 9-10 days in japan wor... i dun really want to accept this offer because i think it would be a torture to me as i can't play the violin at all.

yesterday i was feeling miserable... i went to school on trembling legs.. i didn't have enuf sleep because i had to finish the chinese report (2000-3000words). ai... we did a UE past papaer in the morning. i was panicking and it turned out to be a mess. gun jue goh chinese presentation ok la... a bit over run lor. the group after after us was ok too.

gun jue music test... i didn't play so well... ho ng dim lor i think... but i saw lily nodding her head a little while i was playing.. ho chi hai dou reassure ngor gum. miss ko.. i couldn't see from her face what she thought. sab ma as well. but joyzi said she saw miss ko thumbs up gum lor. dunno. if miss ko was really refering to me jau ho la~ gun jue lai lai ha mo gum nervous la.. but gwor d vibrato jung hai mo mud effect.. goh right arm yau ho stiff.. goh cadenza jut jor 1 chi, but gwor ok wor. ending goh chord dou ok. gun jue dai ga applaused... jung yue struggle yuen la... joyzi kui dei wa ngor ok, although ngor jung hai gok duc ji gei yuen chuen ng duc, but gwor feeling better now~

i've finished Kafka's "Trial" today. can't really accept the sad ending of K... i still dunno y he's guilty and then he's killed. i'll continue to read the notes by Kafka's frd tomorrow.

i have borrowed another bk. it's the diary of Paul Klee. he was a violinist, artist and he wrote beautifully too. i possessed these talents too... when i was small. now i'm dimming....